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Thank you

April 13, 2009

I have yet to email everyone who commented on my last post, but I really want to thank you all for weighing in.  I think some of my own biases blinded me to a few important points that were brought up in comments, like the fact that for some kids, medication is a true godsend.  That’s not the case for my little guy, but I shouldn’t knock it universally.  And there’s also the fact that a “cure” is not something I’m seeking, but I have a relatively high functioning child who is expected to be able to live on his own one day.  That’s not the case for all people with autism, and for more severe cases, a cure might be a blessing.  I think what concerns me about the language of cures is how we use the language at a time when a cure does not exist.   The reality at the moment is that there is no cure, and I think focusing on how to function, assist, and accomodate is more useful than focusing on a far off cure.  I think that when we pin our hopes on a cure, we neglect the present sometimes – people think it’s about curing and changing others, not accepting them as they currently are.  But I phrased some of that rather poorly as one is wont to do when ranting.  I love that you guys keep me honest on here.  I’ve always gotten such thoughtful comments, and I really appreciate it.

I haven’t forgotten that this is a knitting blog, I swear, but I figured one month a year it doesn’t hurt to delve into something so important to my life a little more deeply, and to open a dialog with folks who may not have it on their minds.  I’ll post later today or sometime tomorrow with actual knitting content.  Thank you.

Autism Awareness Month rant

April 11, 2009

I’ve been very busy lately with classes and secret projects and children who are on Spring Break (oh my!) and such, but there are a few things I’ve been thinking about that need a little space.  Last year, around this time, I had an Autism Awareness Month contest. I asked people to donate to the Autism Research Institute to be entered into a raffle.  I won’t be doing that this year.  I’m disturbed by the presence of Jenny McCarthy’s book on the front page of the Autism Research Institute, as well as the slogan, “Defeat autism now!”  These are separate and complicated rants, so I’ll try to parse this as best I can.

Jenny McCarthy is, I’m sure, a caring parent, but she is not a doctor.  I saw her site, the now defunct “IndigoMoms”, prior to the time when she claimed to have “cured” her son’s autism, and it was there that I saw autistic children referred to as “Crystal Children” and “Indigo Children”, higher evolved beings with auras of indigo or crystal.  I shit you not.  At the time, I found this view beyond naive, even potentially dangerous.  If a child is too highly evolved to function with the rest of us non evolved beings, I don’t see a lot of motivation for parents to accept the interventions that make such a difference in an autistic child’s life.

Now, Jenny claims to have “cured” her son Evan.  Once autistic, she says, Evan is now autism free!  And your child can be, too!

Oooookaaaaay, then.  There are so many issues here that it’s hard to know where to start.  But, picking at random, let’s start with the fact that Jenny, on her new, less flaky website, is still promoting the idea that vaccines cause autism.  There is no reputable study that indicates that this is the case, but still, vast amounts of autism research money are still being spent on yet more studies to prove that the unreliable studies are false.  This after the doctor who sparked the scare was found to have lied and fixed the results of his study linking vaccines to autism.  Dr. Wakefield still has his supporters online, supporters who are curiously open to the possibility of a conflict of interest in the case of other studies, but not to their idol’s own conflicts of interest.  Dr. Wakefield chose the twelve research subjects for his study.  Of those, at least four, probably five children were selected from among a group of parents suing the companies that provide vaccinations.  Dr. Wakefield himself was paid up to £55,000 to find evidence of a scientific link between autism and vaccines for use in the lawsuit.

So there’s that.  I have a real problem with wasting money on research where there isn’t a strong indication that it will do any good.  There hasn’t been a single study disproving the autism/vaccine link that hasn’t received a chilly reception by those who wish to believe the opposite.  And believe me, I understand the incentive.  It would be so, so lovely to have an easy source for the rise in autism diagnoses.  We must remember, however, that correlation is not causation.  Yes, autism rates have risen around the same time more children began getting the combined MMR vaccine, but without evidence linking those two, the two rising charts do not indicate a solution to a knotty problem.

At the moment, the research is pointing in a different direction – a combination of environmental and genetic factors.  I personally, from my non-scientific stance, think it’s entirely possible that for some small percentage of children with a genetic predisposition to autism, vaccines could be a trigger.  But we don’t know, and when the research indicates pretty conclusively that for most children with autism, the MMR was not the cause, I think it’s foolish to keep harping on the matter.  Autism research has long been driven by parent concerns, and this is good and bad.  Without the influence of parents, we might still be living in the bad old days of refrigerator mothers, an idea that still has some ground in parts of Europe. Parents pushed for more and better research, and today in the United States, the idea that autism is caused by frigid mothers is luckily a thing of the past.  At the same time, parents are, for the most part, not scientists, and we don’t always understand the scientific method.  The plural of anecdote is not data, but for most of us, anecdote rings truer than any study.  We believe what we want to believe.  I’m not immune to this, though I’m trying to approach the mass of information before me, as a parent of an autistic child, with as little bias as I can, and with as much concentration on the method as possible.

Jenny McCarthy finds it comforting to believe that her son is no longer autistic, and were she a private citizen, this would be a harmless belief.  But she’s not a private citizen.  Jenny McCarthy, actress, former Playboy model, is driving research in autism.  Jenny McCarthy is writing books about how to cure autism.  Jenny McCarthy is being given an enormous public forum for her ill informed ideas.  The tyranny of equal time in American media means that her claims are taken as seriously as the claims of actual doctors doing actual research. This is comparable to times when we’re shown one of the few scientists who doesn’t believe in global warming debating one of the 90 plus percent who does.  It is not fair, and it is not an accurate portrayal.  Most doctors studying autism do not think there is a link between autism and vaccines, and they do not think that autism can be cured.

This is a good time to discuss the second part of my rant: curing, defeating, or fighting autism.  Personally, I’m not for any of those things.  Don’t get me wrong, I want lots more research and I want lots more interventions and help for the children (and adults – they do exist, even if they’re hardly ever mentioned) who have autism.  But the militant language that often comes with autism research from organizations fronted by parents really disturbs me.  My son has autism, and I have no desire to erradicate it.  His autism is a part of who he is.  His dear, loving little quirks are part and parcel of the whole package.  Take away his autism, and you’re taking away a part of who he is.  What I want is to teach him how to live with his differences, not make him exactly like a neurotypical child.  There’s a lot he has to learn to fit into a society in which the balance of people are neurologically different from him, but you know, it’s not just those with autism who need to learn.  We who call ourselves normal need to make an effort as well.

The problem with the language of cures and fights is that it starts with the premise that autism is something wrong with people.  At this point, people with autism will live out their lives as autistic people, and many autistic people do so with great success.  There are quite a few blogs by autistic adults on the internet, and if you read them you’ll notice that what most of these people want is not to be unburdened of their autism, but to be treated as capable human beings with autism.  In my personal scope, I think that autism is less “something wrong” than it is something that requires a different approach.  My son is not medicated.  All of his therapies involve learning to parent and teach him differently, to maximize his success and help his differently wired neurosystem succeed.  I would love it if life was a little easier for him, but I would not love it if we lost the gifts that come with his autism.

This year, if you want to do something for Autism Awareness Month, my suggestion is just to learn a little bit more about autism from several different viewpoints.  You’ve just gotten some of mine, but my view is pretty limited in scope.  Check out some of the blogs out there by parents of autistic children, by autistic adults.  Read an article about autism.  Learn a little bit more.  Our children can only benefit when people are better informed.


May 27, 2008

I’m sorry I didn’t post this sooner, but luckily, I’m quicker at posting packages than posting in the blog, so my package of brown yarns is currently winging its way to Christine, whose name was drawn at random from a hat containing the names of everyone who entered the Autism Awareness Month Drawing. Thank you so much to everyone who entered – I wish I could send all of you a little something.

Congratulations, Christine! I can’t wait to see what you make with the yarns!

Raising Awareness, Raising Funds

April 16, 2008

April is Autism Awareness Month. Of course, April is half over already, but it’s been pretty busy at Kninja Central. As you may already know, my second son, Liam, is on the high functioning end of the autism spectrum. Each parent of an autistic child faces unique challenges. Autism being a complete spectrum, our children manifest the symptoms of their particular neurological glitches in very, very different ways. It took me a while to suspect Liam of being on the spectrum because I’d always heard that autistic children weren’t very affectionate, and Liam is the huggiest and most outwardly affectionate of my children.

Liam, in retrospect, was a suspiciously easy baby. He was calm, sweet, and often content to sit by himself. As he reacher toddlerhood, he liked to play alone a lot of the time. Gabriel was often frustrated that the baby didn’t want to play with him. The earliest clue, again in retrospect, was that Liam had the same reaction to both praise and criticism. He would listen politely, without much interest, and then return to what he was doing. Even if I’d told him no, he’d still seem surprised (and displeased) when I removed him from a dangerous situation. He didn’t crave the attention of adults the way other children usually do.

That struck me as a personality quirk, but as he got older, the quirks became more pronounced, particularly when his speech became full fledged. He spoke in a very scripted way, memorizing books and DVDs, and co-opting the language for his own use. He even spoke in the same tones and accent that he first heard the words spoken in. As an example, when Eleanor was born, Liam was three and a half. He was a big fan of David Attenborough, and had memorized the two four DVD sets Life of Mammals and Blue Planet. When I would nurse Eleanor, Liam would say, in a British accent, “Mommy, you are surviving her on your fatty milk, which she will turn into blubber, or baby fat.” Every time. In the car, I’d hear a little voice from the back seat pipe up with, “The blue whale is right underneath our boat! Over 100 feet long, the blue whale is the largest animal ever to live on planet Earth!” He’d continue, sometimes for five or ten minutes at a time, reciting whole videos or passages. He could adapt the words to his own needs, but the times he used words wholly his own were few and far between. If he became really agitated, he retreated into his scripts, feeding people lines, and finding comfort in knowing exactly what would happen next.

At three and a half, it finally became impossible to ignore all the quirks. There were so many, and they were so odd. Any of them alone could have been normal for a young child, but they added up to something more. We took Liam in for testing, and he was diagnosed with PDD-NOS (Pervasive Developmental Disorder – Not Otherwise Specified) shortly after his fourth birthday.

We do face a lot of daily challenges with Liam, but a lot of joy, too.

There is more autism research being conducted today than ever before, but we’re still a long way from knowing the causes and triggers of autism. And with one in every 150 children being diagnosed with autism these days, it’s essential that we learn the whys and hows.

I’m not one of those who thinks that the word “cure” is appropriate here. Part of what is wonderful about Liam comes from the unique way he looks at the world. But the unique way that Liam looks at the world is also what makes it harder for him to get along in the world. I want that gap bridged. And for that reason, I’m offering a prize package of yarn for those who donate to the Autism Research Institute between now and May 16th.

Make a donation of any amount, and email me at to let me know, and I’ll enter you in a drawing to win some of my stash yarn. One entry per person, and this is entirely on the honor system. I have no way of checking to see if you actually donated. The yarn I’ve pulled together is this: three skeins of Rowan RYC Soft Tweed in Twig, two skeins of a brown boucle yarn simply called Knitting Boucle, and one skein of Panda Silk in Nutmeg.

Prize yarn

Once again, make a donation to the Autism Research Institute, then email and let me know, and you’ll be entered into a random drawing to win the above yarn.